Sunday, August 02, 2009

Earlier today, we attended a study group conducted by Mr S at the National Library. I shall not reveal anything on what was discussed among the study group. Wouldn't wanna get any party in trouble.

The study group session make me question myself on my own identity. I'm a Malay. Both my parents are Malay. My maternal grandparents are Malay. My paternal grandparents are Javanese. I live in a Malay speaking family. I got a B4 for my O level Malay paper. I beri salam to my fellow Malay friends. I eat with my right hand, wipe my butt with my left. What I'm saying is, I'm still ethnically and culturally correct.

On the contrary, my iPod have not a single Malay song. Most of my send messages are texted in English. I don't watch Suria. I don't tune in to Warna or Ria. I wear baju kurung only on Hari Raya. I rather curse and swear in English. I have no idea who was Yasmin Ahmad. Last of all, I find people who are too Malay are weird. With all these said, the question I'm asking myself is; Does it make me less of a Malay?

Honestly, I don't care. Whatever that don't make me sound or look stupid, I'd go with it. Whatever that make communication go faster and smoother, I'd go with it. Whatever that is more entertaining and more engaging, I'd go with it. I don't feel in anyway this would affect my identity. It's the matter of preferences.

What important is, I'm not trying to be anyone. I don't dye my hair, get fancy phone, buy nice shoes just because everyone else is. My running, swimming, iPod, PS3 are all purely me.

That goes by the saying...

"Wanting To Be Someone Else Is A Waste Of The Person You Are" - Kurt Cobain

Also...

"Takkan Melayu Hilang Di Dunia" - Hang Tuah

And my favourite...

"If You Can't Convince Them, Confuse Them" - Harry S Truman

Hahaha...

Fenderson out...