Tuesday, February 21, 2006

(Robbie Williams - Feel)

I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

these are the best lines that describe on the situation i'm currently in. i wanna cut my wrist and let out all this 'love running through my veins'. it's not doing me any good infact it's torturing the living daylight out of me. just when i thought that phase is over but something happened and it all came rushing back in. got no one except myself to blame. growing up sucks. everything changes while im in the process. my views, my personalities, my thoughts, me needs and my whatsoever. miss those days when i was young, stupid and carefree. nothing bothered me. but now, it's all different. not having a lot of cash, not having one of the coolest gadget, not having someone to release my 'love running through my veins', etc etc it all bothers me alright cause these are most of the stuff that earn people recognitions today. a sick sad little world indeed. who doesn't want recognition? everyone does. that's one reason for these Idols stuff. don't give me the 'discover your potential' or 'you won't know till you try' shit. i don't buy it. it's about the fame and fortune. human will constantly in search for them. at least one of it if not both. we, human are kinda pathetic if you think about it. well, God works in a mysterious way. have faith and everything will be fine, i hope. Fenderson out...